August 31st, 2004
Yeah I know it's been a REALLY bloody long ass time since I've written in this. I've been hella busy with everything! I got my $3000 university bill paid off the Friday before Rush week and got into my classes just in the nick of time. I'm taking Physics 151, Math 106 (calculus), Spanish 102, and Geography 283. That's 17 credits this year so it'll be a little tougher than last year in which i only took 14 credits.
Rush week was okay. The first few days were hell because we had to do all this training and crap and we were locked in so we couldn't leave the house at all for the whole week! I know...stupid huh? I guess they do that becuase they don't want Active members to have any contact with the potential new memebers. Basically, so we don't "illegally" rush them into sorority. The last few days I broke down crying a lot (i guess a lot of girls were) and i missed Tony a ton and was doing sorority stuff from 8am to 9pm every day. Then everyone started getting sick so I caught a cold also.
School is going great and i am soooo gladd to be back! I've been staying at Sigma Nu (Tony's fraternity) a lot that i actually feel like i live there. Most of the guys already know my name! LOL. I can basically jsut walk in nowadays without having to explain why i'm there. I just go in cuz everyone knows i'm there to see Tony! LOL. And yes, I have been getting my homework done and managing my time with Tony.
AND I put myself back on a healthy diet becuz my mom said i was pudgy when I came home last weekend. Tony and I came to Watertown for a day to drop off my loft, stayed for 2.5 hrs and then left. I really wanted to stay longer but Tony had a game to be at the next day at noon so we couldn't stay long. Seemed like everyone cried when I left and that just made me feel real bad. My grandma was already crying and it looked like my sister was about to and then Harley was looking at me like,"you just got here and you're leaving me???" So i started crying then my mom cried and Todd and Tony were just standing there prolly thinking,"what tha hell did i miss?" LOL What a cry-fest...
Mom said she was telling Harley that I was coming home so he starts to lie on my bed for a couple days...lol...he's smart! When I came home, he pissed all over the porch (he does that when he's really excited) and he jumped up 5 feet in the air and got me all dirty and wouln't leave my side for the whole time i was home. He was licking my face so much STILL an hour later that my mom had to take him off me! Then when i picked up my purse to go, he saw that and just stared at my purse and then me and then my purse and he wouldn't stop staring! Then he got that dissappointed look on his face. :( Then he tried sneaking out the door when we went out but didn't make it...LOL...he must have thought he was going with me. :)
Anyways, I'm tired and it's late. TTYL!
August 7th, 2004
Yeah I know. Haven't wrote lately. I have been royally busy. I helped my mom move out and get into her house in Watertown. It is soooo beautiful! It has 3 stories, 4 bedrooms, & 2 bathrooms. And the walls are painted bright colors so it gives the house some character to it. The landscaping out on the patio is just gorgeous because it has these HUGE pine trees that block the sunlight from getting to the house and has a big garden with all sorts of plants like daisies and other cute flowers. The ground is kinda like a brick layout or a cobblestone layout...I'm not sure which one but it looks really nice! The floors are all new in the house...the carpet is beige and fluffy so it's really comfortable to walk on, the dining room and entry hall has brand new wooden floors, my mom is going to redo the floor in the kitchen with wood because the floor the people had on there is really crappy. The basement was totally redone before we came. The carpet is also new down there too and the walls are lined with this "naughty pine" look (i guess that's what they call it). I mean, this house was built in 1906! And the people totally redid it completely in the last few years!
I joked to my mom, "you might wanna ask if anyone died in this house cuz there might be ghosts!" LOL. She got kinda nervous after that becuz i showed her something on the internet that freaked us out. (Chad showed us this website with a video that had a ghost on it. www.bartonmansion.com if you wnat to look. go to the video and then when you watch it, there are 3 doors...one on the left, right, and in front of you. keep an eye on the door on the right. you might not see it right away so you have to keep watching it so you'll catch it cuz it's a really fast clip) We were both kinda nervous that first night you know...lol...we're scaredy cats i know. :)
And Harley, our dog, was sooooo sad when I left to go back to Omaha. He's been sleeping in my bed those few days i was there and he's sooo cute! He would lay his head down on my pillow and take up half my bed so i had to scoot him so i could lie down. Later, he'd be lying facing away from me on his side, so he would turn his head and start licking me. Then he'd move down to my feet and sleep for a couple hours and then walk up to my face by morning and lie down on my forehead...lol. The last night i was there, he walks up behind my back (i was lying on my side) and just sits there by my head staring at me. I woke up and his cute little fat face was just staring down at me! I jumped at first cuz i've never in my life woke up to a dog in my face before! LOL. It was sooo cute how his face was slightly hidden behind his ears as he was looking down at me! Then he laid his head down on my neck in between my collarbone and my jaw...it felt like a neck brace! LOL. Yeah i know...i'm a dork...i just *sigh* love dogs!
When i left, i put him on my mom's bed and went down the stairs. When i got to the kitchen, i heard him pile-drive off my mom's bed, across the hall, and down the stairs. All of a sudden, i hear this, "thump didy thump thump thump"...LOL I see him at the bottom of the stairs all sprawled out so he jumps up and shakes himself off. lol. THen when I was going out the door, he sits there in the entry way, tilts his head, whines a little and cocks his head down a ltitle. His big brown eyes looked like they were filling up with tears...lol...j/k. I felt sooo bad for leaving him. Mom said he's been throwing up since...not sure if it was cuz i left, cuz the move or both...i don't know.
Tony and I had our 2 months anniversary on the 4th but we actually had the "celebration" last night. He reserved a hotel at the Marriott Courtyards in downtown Omaha, which was huge by the way. Our room had a really high ceiling and a king size bed...i asked,"is this a suite?" ..."no just a regular room"...OMG it was huge! Then he ordered room service and here comes a tub of champagne and chocolate covered strawberries! I was like,"Did we get married and I just totally forgot about the ceremony???" LOL. I asked,"I wonder what the honeymoon would be like if we ever got married!" lol. And NO we did not get married for those who freaked out over my voice mail about me saying I was on my honeymoon. lol. We actually had someone believe us when we said we were married but he figured out after a while that we were pulling his tail. lol
Downtown Omaha was awesome! It was like being in New York City all over again! They had these cute little shops like coffee, ice cream, and paintings (the painting shop actually had a few Terry Redlin paintings). There were all sorts of entertainers outside on the street corners...there was a guy who blew balloons into funny shapes and someone was playing the saxaphone, which sounded amazing...and there were horse carraige rides too! And I guess this stuff happens every night if it's nice out! I was amazed with all the stuff that was going on!
And we walked by the Con Agra foods world headquarters and that was humungous! They had a huge garden and a park the size of the country club in Huron, a long sidewalk with flags lined up and down, huge clock tower, and a great view of downtown Omaha and the downtown park and its fountain....and it's all for the workers of Con Agra...my god...talk about spoiled!
There were other things too like this area with a small fountain (okay as big as Municipal pool; but considered "small" in Omaha) and just tons of art around the area. I wanna go back and take pictures becuz the art there was so exquisite!
And I haven't even seen 1/4 of Omaha yet! Geez!
Enough about that...I actually went with someone's advice that I should just write a letter to Justin and Tony agreed with her so I sat down for an hour and outlined what i wanted to say, put it in the order i wanted it, and finally wrote it. I don't know if he read it or not...i just left it in his mailbox. But i feel better knowing that i had the guts to come out with it and finally tell him the truth. He probably flashed it all over town for all i know...let people think what they want to think. Later they'll realize that it was good of me to finally tell him instead of trying to hide it for the rest of my life.
Anyways, sorrry this is soooo long but it's been a loooong time since i last wrote so i had a good excuse to indulge. :)

July 6th, 2004 Well, I haven't done much except for looking for a job and hanging out with Tony in Omaha. Getting a job here is really really hard. I've applied at the mall at almost 15 stores and no one's even called. Vanity hired me but I didn't want to do it because they were only going to give me 10 to 15 hours. So now I'm applying at the assisted living centers because I would like to do something I like and make good money for it.
The 4th was awesome in Omaha! People jsut light their fireworks in town for gosh sakes! In the evening when we were waiting for the park fireworks to start, people are just lighting fireworks in the parking lots and at their houses! I couldn't believe it...you don't really get away with that in South Dakota. And the sky was so hazy from people doing fireworks; it was funny. There was not a moment along the horizon you didn't see fireworks that night; it was so cool. And people down here have NEVER heard of a sparkler bomb before so I had to try and show them but my bombs didn't work at all. I'll keep trying though cuz they're missing out.
And you people thought I was a blonde. Someone I know just had a Golden Blonde Moment. This woman is Tony's dad's girlfriend and she's pretty nice and smart; she just had a really funny blonde moment. I mean, this beats my Miss Congeniality stunt in front of a frat house. Tony and I were lighting fireworks and one of the canisters was still kinda on fire. So I said we should get some water and pour it on that. She goes,"Don't pour water on it; it'll make it worse!" We looked at her just bewildered and had no idea what she was thinking. So his dad says,"Well, why do you think firemen have WATER hoses hunny? It's not like they're shooting kitty litter out of it or anything. 'Okay hun, we better get to Petco so we can put out this fire' " LOL But she kept trying to pursuade us that you didn't put water on fire and we jsut couldn't believe she thought that. But we found out she was thinking of a GREASE fire; not a regular fire. You don't put water on a grease fire; it makes it worse. You put baking soda or something on it. THAT's where she got the idea that water made it worse. ONLY on a grease fire people. You don't need 1 million boxes of baking soda to put out a house fire. LOL Now that we understand where she got that from, it makes it a non-blonde moment anymore. But it was still funny.
And I apologize for the crap that's been going on in my guestbook lately. I don't know who this person is or what but they sure luv to rant on me and they must be really really obsessed with J*****. I thought it was C***** at first, but the IP addy didn't match any of hers she's used before and she wrote in my forum earlier and didn't say anything rude or anything of the like; so I have an idea who it might be but not sure if they would keep harrassing me after 3 months or not. And this person is too chicken to even tell me their name or how old they are or where they are from so what makes them? I'm just going to listen to a piece of advice I gave C***** once. Ignore them...it pisses them off even more. So that's what I'm going to do. And I'm just going to leave the entries up for a while just so people can see how immature a person can get. If this is a bad idea, let me know. I don't want to embarrass myself either if that's what leaving these entries up is going to do to me.

July 1st, 2004
World of Fun was soooo much fun! I never had that much fun in forever! Tony tried getting me to go on the rip cord, but I got too chicken and refused to...but I went on every other ride anyways. But we got some really cool pictures. Then I slept all day yesterday until 9:30pm which was a shock to me cuz i never sleep that late..lol. We were really worn out. When I woke up, Tony had some people come over and we cooked brats and had some beer...it was cool. Tonight we're having more people over at my place and i'm sure Tony will be here so...yeah. And i quit my job today becuz i didn't want to put up with only having 10-15 hours a week. I'm just going to get a full time job becuz it's just not going to work having rent to pay and stuff. And i guess i'm getting a fake id cuz Tony wants me to go to the bars with him so we're going to get someone to borrow me their birth certificate and social security card and see if I can get one...hehehe. So i do n't know...and we will be coming back to Huron after the 4th to see my grandma and have Tony meet everyone...yay!! They're going to like him sooo much!

June 30th, 2004
Hey long time no write! Been busy and all. Sorority is coming up soon and i'll be busy for a week for that. My internet at home doesn't work either so i don't get online much anymore. Things are really stressful right now. Can't get loans for school, got put on academic probation but that was all a misunderstanding with the professor, STILL can't get a damn job here and about giving up, and moving out is driving me NUTS!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah, i'mr eally tired...bye.

June 28th, 2004
Yay! 16 hrs. until Kansas City! I can't wait and I'm soooo excited. Tony and I are going to go to Worlds of Fun which is a really really super duper fun amusement park. Beats Valley Fair!
Omg...Tony is soooo fun to be around and we have soooo much in common. We both luv to draw, luv outdoors, luv being social, and partying. And he's soooo much better than some of the guys I've ran into...hint hint.
Well, lets see...1) he's nice. He's not freakishly obsessivly nice though. Like, he's not going to shower my mom with a dozen roses or anything. 2) He's mature. 3) Doesn't smoke. 4) Not an alcoholic. 5) Smart. Has a 3.6 GPA in college and it's his senior year now? 6) Has an education and plans for a future. 6) Has good hygiene. You know, brushes his teeth, combs his hair, puts deoderant on, keeps his bodily hair looking decent, wears appropriate clothing for appropriate events, etc. 7) So far he's not clingy or possessive. 8) Has a life other than me and accepts that I have a life other than him. 10) And he's funny and knows the same kind of humor I do.
He took care of me when I got sick and ended up in the ER, his family likes me and actually talks to me and they're nice people. And he's going to take me camping cuz i've never been camping ever...and he plays baseball and likes to do other things like be outside, be social, go out, and pretty much do the things I like to do. I'm really an outside type and always wants to do something fun or outrageous and he's pretty much the same way. I really think my family will like him and I can't wait till they meet him becuz i know he's going to present himself well.